How long will you lie there, you sluggard?
When will you get up from your sleep?
A little sleep, a little slumber,
a little folding of the hands to rest- Proverbs 6:9-10.
Wherefore he saith (in Isaiah 60:1), Awake thou that sleepest, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall give thee light (Ephesians 5:14).
This is one of the biggest pitfalls of the 'over 30' life. Life used to be full of adventure, a new happening every day. Burn the midnight oil and experience, experience, experience. Then suddenly you become one of those the twenty somethings can't trust.
Habit takes over; you've been there, done that; it has lost its joy. Welcome to middle age (a relative term! I know some octogenarians that have more life than some teenagers).
Anyway you have that sinking feeling that life is passing you by; you can't sleep as late as you used to, have to get to work. That means you can't celebrate half the night like the 'good ole days'.
It's a rude awakening! But the good book says wake up!!, and it doesn't mean wake up to go to work. It means wake up to LIFE, a life that you haven't known to this point.
A beautiful sunrise is worth any amount of drinking and/or smoking. It endures; it's something you'll remember when all the rest of that twenties stuff has become just a gray haze. You'll especially remember it if you're still with that person you enjoyed it with years ago.
At my age it's inconceivable to go thru life without a companion that you've shared things with beside 'celebrating' with. I feel so sorry for people trying to live by themselves.
Well what can I say? You'll never believe that being older is better until you have experienced it, but you will-- most certainly if you follow the path of truth.
You have my blessing and God's.